[VLOG 187] The Bridge

Half way across the longest pedestial bridge in Germany on a fresh and rainy Tuesday afternoon, I got it. I got what they’ve been trying to tell me all along…

 

This trip, travelling across Europe, has been the realisation of a major dream.

 

Not to travel. That, oddly, has never been a dream of mine.

 

I’ve only ever wanted four things, and they’re all feelings.

 

I wanted financial freedom to go and live and work wherever I wanted.

 

I wanted energy and spirit to wake up inspired and motivated to ‘go’.

 

I wanted to feel inspirational, showing other people what’s possible for their lives.

 

And I wanted to feel happy, like I was living the life meant for me.

 

I set this vision for myself over three years ago, when I was trapped in debt and business, suffering from a six and a half year stint of depression, with no energy for life, l i t e r a l l y hating who I’d become.

 

I set this vision and I held on to it, through the highs and lows, the successes and the failures. I kept it front and centre the whole time.

 

“When I get there, I’ll be happy”, I’d say to myself.

 

“One more launch and we’ll take that holiday”, I’d promise Alice.

 

“I’ll slow down when I hit that goal”, I’d tell my mum.

 

Each day, I took one more step along the path…desperate to reach the end of my journey; to hit that high – so my life could begin.

 

Then, in December 2018, Alice called my bluff. She said “We’re never going on that trip are we?”.

 

I looked up at her face and I knew she was right. I had been so focused on ‘getting there’ I was missing out on life, now.

 

That moment, something in me changed. I closed my lap top, called DFDS and booked a 21 day return trip to Europe. Nothing more.

 

We planned each day as it came. We booked our accomodation on the go. And we went to visit this bridge on a whim.

 

And that’s when it happened. Half way across that bridge in Germany, half way through a 21 day tour around Europe, half way through my 32nd year on this planet, I got it.

 

It’s not about the destination. I had that wrong.

 

It’s about the journey. And mine has just begun.

 

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Here’s for daring to grow.

 

Here’s to living life now.

 

Here’s to the journey. It’s all we have.

 

Lisa x x x

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